It's been a long, long time since I logged in to this account.

I don't expect anybody to notice, or care, that I've logged back on. I was a crappy friend, and a person too scared to face certain things that I should have. I abandoned some people I really shouldn't have, and I don't know if those relationships are salvageable. The truth was, I was afraid - and I still am, to some extent - of insanity. It's the fear of the unknown and the uncontrollable, which I know I shouldn't be afraid of, but I latched onto it and I wouldn't let go. I went through some times that I wish I hadn't, I wish I had been a better person and not disappeared.

I'm tired of feeling guilty and sad, though. I offer my deepest apologies to those who I left behind, because I know I shouldn't have. I should have stuck around and faced my fears, but I didn't, I was a coward. If you don't want to hear from me again, that's fine. I understand, completely and fully. I was a sucky person, and all I can say is that I think I've gotten better.

My new account is and my AIM account, which is rarely ever in use, is spookypiratehat.

I'm sorry.